The God I use to know is the God I want to know again.

So some things have been happening in my world the last few weeks that have made me wonder what might have been. There is so much water under the bridge as a result of choices I have made in the last 30 years. Most of which I realize I can never undo. One of the things I can work at turning around is the child like faith I had after accepting the saving grace of Jesus Christ as a troubled teenager. After that time it was ok to raise my hands in praise. It was ok to talk about faith. It was ok to talk about the problems I still had.

I left home and attended other “churches” where it was not OK to be open, transparent, vulnerable. It is time to swing back around to the faith of my youth. My children know the god of my church. I want them to know the God of my heart. They know the god that says you must not miss a Sunday. I want them to know the God that never leaves all week long. My children know a god that follows a program and a sequence that cannot be altered. I want them to know a God who works miracles in the wink of an eye and knows no schedule.

I am sure this will be a process of change but I am also sure the God of my youth can do it. I have no idea what that means, I am not sure I care. Life on this planet is short. There is an end. It is the ever after I am concerned with. Did I listen with the faith of a child and do as instructed?

I read the book So You Don’t Want To Go To Church Anymore and it is a must read, but only if you miss the initial love of the Lord that was tamed, trained, organized, prioritized and otherwise “adjusted” through normal “church”. The book has done a marvelous job of rekindling the spark of the childlike faith I knew when I first accepted Christ as my personal savior. It is ok to “skip church” to help out a neighbor. It is OK to get to know people in the “congregation” it is ok to be a child like believer in the grace of Christ. He met us where we were and he still meets us where we are, we just got to be willing.